The Adventure Starts Here: Looking Back... My Week in the Hospital

Monday, October 28, 2013

Looking Back... My Week in the Hospital

This week, I can't help but think back to last year at this time.  Let me start by saying that I did not have an easy time getting pregnant, I didn't have an easy pregnancy, and I definitely did not have an easy (or fun) birth story.  But even despite all this, I don't look back at being pregnant in a negative way... I would do it again in a heartbeat and I actually look forward to it.  

  Just recently I re-read the birth story that I posted here on the blog back in November 2012.  Looking back, I wish I had waited a little longer to post it so that I could have let everything set in.  It was a very emotional week, and I don't think I had fully wrapped my head around how bad things were and how we were very lucky with the end result. 

 

Let me start by saying that I really did like MY doctor.  However, I came to learn that when you are in a practice that has multiple doctors, you don't really have your OWN doctor.  ALL of them are your doctors.  So as much as I liked her, trusted her, and valued her opinions and decisions, it didn't really matter unless she was on call.  I guess I should just be thankful that when I first presented with my symptoms that she was on call to admit me and that she was back on call when it came time to deliver me.  However, the 4 days in between were hell!  

I remember when my doctor decided to admit me to the hospital for more testing, that she said it looked like I was developing HELLP syndrome.  (Now looking at this website, I had ALL of those symptoms, and the only characteristic I didn't have was the hemolysis).   I had no clue what this was, and she said it was basically atypical pre-eclampsia.  She explained that I had elevated liver enzymes and a low platelet count and she wanted to keep monitoring those levels so that they could deliver me if necessary.  Even though she told me that this syndrome usually didn't present with the normal high blood pressure and protein in the urine like normal pre-eclampsia, it seemed that every nurse and doctor that I saw after that, kept telling me that since I didn't have those symptoms, that nothing could be wrong.   The biggest lesson I learned... you can't, and shouldn't, just trust doctors blindly and you have to be your own advocate!


To sum up my hospital stay... I had my blood taken more times than I can count, I cried A LOT, I was induced twice, I got an epidural, had it run out, and then had it started again.  By the time they made the decision to do a C-Section, I think I met every nurse that was on duty that week and knew all the nurses that were present in my operating room.  And while I could (and do) look back at this experience with complete anger, I instead feel like I have to laugh at all the incompetency, because if I don't I just end up crying again.  


Before I got pregnant, I had a doctor that I loved.  I did not go to him for my pregnancy because he did not deliver at the two hospitals that were closest to our current home.  After my bad experience, I decided that I didn't care about that anymore, and would rather have him as a doctor.  So three months after I had Noah, I went back to see him for my routine annual exam.  He wasn't even aware that I had gotten pregnant and had a baby, so during that appointment, I had a lot to tell him to say the least.  As soon as I told him what my initial symptoms were he immediately said it was textbook HELLP syndrome.  He said that instead of waiting so long to induce me and having to have a C-Section, he would have induced me right away and that I probably would have been able to hold out longer and possibly have a vaginal birth.  Even though we both laughed while I told him my story (cause it was just that ridiculous), I left even more angry with my old doctors.  I've decided I have to get over it and I will just learn from this experience for my next pregnancy (god willing).  Doctors are always telling you that the internet will just make you scared, but I have learned to never stop questioning your doctors.  Even if the internet ends up being wrong, never just take what your doctor say as the be all end all... they are human and make mistakes!  


So as you can see, I look back at this week with mixed emotions.  It was a week full of emotions, being  in pain, very scared, very angry, but ending in total bliss when I got to hold my beautiful baby boy.

 

I'm once again linking up with Leah and Emily for Mommy and Me Monday!  

2 comments:

  1. What an emotional time indeed. I can't believe you had to go through all of that. But then again, like you said, the end result is pretty much the best thing ever isn't it?

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  2. Wow! So sorry you had to deal with all of that! I couldnt even imagine! Glad your lil man is here safely and it all ended up working out :)

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